So Be It...

What's left of me
Is the little pride I have
To keep the love for myself
And not be completely overtaken
By the spurious feeling for you I have

The rainshowers are here again
Physically you ain't notice it
Because I cautiously hide it
Deep inside the feelings continue
But on the outside, I stopped to pursue

I am doing all of these
Not because I am weak
Not because I am coward
Not because of any reason
It's because of the decision I clinged to

Spending nights on alcohol
Because of things I just can't control
This has been the greatest cycle I had
Ups, downs, no in-between
That's how life is designed for me
I can't have the best of everything at the same time
I need to give up some things that is out of control
And only take pride of things I think I did right

The hiatus is getting wider
Getting stronger
That as days go by
Creates an unbreakable wall between us
U never care to break it
Neither I

I just keep its growth
Until the wall becomes permanent
But I still hope it won't
But if it Did
And it Is
Then it will Be
So Be It...