Three Decades

Three decades of witnessing sun and moons
Three decades it has been
Recalling each hard stone
That hit the core and caused a sore

Three decades of walking on plains and rocks
Three decades it has been
Computing the amount of saline
That dropped from a twin well

Three decades of chasing home
Three decades it has been
Thinking this child has not grown
Coz he hasn't found the realm of his own

Bees on Chains

Two bees meet on a sudden
Sip the brewed nectar from a decade-old porcelain
A potion that unlocks the chains
Of painful past and challenging beginnings

It took a 5.5 hour to travel from alpha to delta
It was great travelling through time
Not through the speed of light nor sound
Rather, on a degree of trust and honesty

Mirroring has changed the game
A pain for a pain
A knowledge for a knowledge
A belief for a belief
A love for a love

It was no ordinary day
It was beyond work and play
Two bees celebrate on a 8/8 day
Then back to their own hive
In a solitary and content lives

Fragment

The world does not end with a broken heart
Yes it's true, it may seem it is
But it isn't
Yes it's true, it pains to death
But alleviation is attainable
Yes it's true, you have no idea when the hurting will end
But believe me, it will eventually end

At times you drown with your own tears
But im not saying stop crying
If you read this and you still cry?!
i say, just cry :(

Now nothing makes sense
Advices from someone saying "move on", is always easier said than done
The real pain of a hurting person is only understood by the person itself
Noone can ever understand exactly how it feels
No one ever does
Yes no one can ever see
The vast sadness and longing that dwells within

Another night of crying is a night closer to moving on
You may gone out of tears but never of pain
I am not saying to suppress it
i say, just feel the pain, the worst of it

Travel the roads you used to with someone, with someone new
A friend, a stranger, a crush
someone that makes you romantically happy (a bit ? Perhaps)
It's not erasing memories
It's recreating on a different angle
Believe me, it helps

At the end of day, you still feel the same?
Then you are still in a cycle
Of Nightly tears and fragmented pain

When is over, over ?!

Guess the war is over
Wreckage is all over the place
No more deafening siren calling your name
Flame has gone out of every ceiling

Bloody rescuers had vanished
Irate heartbreaker had calm down
The debris of each burnt piece has cool down
It shatters when kissed by a firefighter's sole

I've learned to flash a smile on top of a frown
Only those in the same boat can notice
It's no surprise no one noticed
Coz i've mastered the technique of fake believing

I soon will forget how to fall
For the love of you had long been over
The memories may be as lucid as before
But the pain I can barely feel and recall

These years

Brume starts to clear after a decade of shower
The sky appears brighter at edgeless horizon
The sun rises with a golden face
And welcomes the night with a blissful face

Everyday is as fresh as dew
Excited to sip through each and every life elements
Deep into the soul of experience
Is a little child inside a grown man

Never noticed days goes by so fast
Now pacing through the fourth decade
Now it's clearer and better
The zillion needles has loosen from the deeply pricked cover

Tough and gentle this man has become
Tactless and frank at times
These what yields after an arduous challenge
In this realm of difficult makind

Still

I got no choice but to embrace the blanket
That is now colder than it did before you came
Drinking whiskey to feel the warmth
But just cant feel its warmth
Travelled to peculiar places
But only to find familiar memories at every corner of the road
Like we used to kill time and never care what tomorrow will be
Like I used to feel you in my arms

Now I am sick of being stuck in this crossroad
The arrow sign has been dilapidated
I have forgotten where I am heading to
Only left is me with extra load of pain

I follow where wind blows
Hoping to find relief at its tail
As i follow its track
It drags me to bushes and can't hardly bounce back
The pace of time is slow
The sun sets on a mourning hue
Where are you
My still you

Mistake

You were a mistake
A painful mistake
Which started as a pixel of undetermined feeling
Turned into a definite mistake

I have used all my energy
Trying to make this right
But just cant
Really cant

In the beginning, You were a sweet mistake
I embrace everything that came with it
Flaws and obvious impecfections
Everything about you were just a turn on

There were days we talk
There were days of silence
A Day of silence
Felt like a decade of absence

I tried not to to care
But it just made me care more
I tried to forget
But it just made me remember more

Now I hate every inch of you
You made me forget who I was before you
Now I hate every memory of you
It just pops everywhere I go

Dont know when this hating and remembering will come to an end
This heartbreak and achy feeling
Now beats with the melody of a melancholic song
Which we used to sing as a happy song