Margin

I reach this moment
All around me seems fake
I can't figure out what's real from not
Once again, my mind play tricks on me

I felt angry
I felt sad
I felt helpless
My mind and my heart are restless

I wanted attention
Not from my friends
Not from my family
But from someone greater than me

I wanted someone to break my walls
Will you be ?!
You might not like what you see
And change your mind suddenly

Right now I am carrying an invisible weight on my shoulders
Damn! It's so heavy
If only I can lift it up easily
And walk through life freely

The figment of my imagination
Is taking me somewhere I can't fathom
It lifts me too high
It pulls me too low

I lost the ability
Of drawing a margin
Between sadness and happiness
Between illusion from reality
When will I win it again?!
To be the master of my own Margin