You are my Impossible

The first time I saw you
You are just like the ordinary
I never thought that you'll change my course
I never thought you'll make a great impact
I've nver been influenced by ordinary
Not until I met you

In the deepness of my thoughts
I still wonder of the "What Ifs"
"What Ifs" that sometimes I wish it happened
"What Ifs" that sometimes I wish it never did
I know one thing for sure
Is that these "What Ifs" are just a product of me
Wanting you, Needing you
I know for sure
These "What Ifs" will remain as long as you are still my impossible

One Percent

I believe that you are the one percent that I need
I accept that you are the one percent that will never make me a hundred
And I hope no more for it is next to impossible

It takes a miracle, will it be worth it ?
You are my miracle, you just don't realize it
I never and will never take another step
For I know what's next
For I know where it leads
I know how it takes

That one percent has become the most coveted
It made me mad and paranoid
It makes my heart beats faster
It yields my best
That one percent just made me stronger than any named beast!

So Be It...

What's left of me
Is the little pride I have
To keep the love for myself
And not be completely overtaken
By the spurious feeling for you I have

The rainshowers are here again
Physically you ain't notice it
Because I cautiously hide it
Deep inside the feelings continue
But on the outside, I stopped to pursue

I am doing all of these
Not because I am weak
Not because I am coward
Not because of any reason
It's because of the decision I clinged to

Spending nights on alcohol
Because of things I just can't control
This has been the greatest cycle I had
Ups, downs, no in-between
That's how life is designed for me
I can't have the best of everything at the same time
I need to give up some things that is out of control
And only take pride of things I think I did right

The hiatus is getting wider
Getting stronger
That as days go by
Creates an unbreakable wall between us
U never care to break it
Neither I

I just keep its growth
Until the wall becomes permanent
But I still hope it won't
But if it Did
And it Is
Then it will Be
So Be It...

You in a Song

If I sing a story
I will sing the story of my life
It may just be a simple play of words
But if I added you into it
It would surely be of great melody
It gives life to a song
It fuels the emotion that I want to express
It bursts into every ear it reaches
It touches every heart it lands
It lightens every soul it chooses

If Only Time Machine Exists

If I have a choice
I want to buy a certain time
I will buy the lost time
I will buy back each yesterday I live without you
If it is turning back time, that can mend & feel me better
Then I'll pay no matter how much it'll cost me
If it means giving back my life
Then I'll do it, if it means being with you in my yesterdays

Brain-Heart Decoder

If I die now
I am willing to submit my brain and heart for decoding purpose
For people to know
The real reason of the pain
The real reason of happiness
That I live through my life

They will be able to see
How my heart and brain
Constantly fighting
When HEART agrees
BRAIN disagrees
When BRAIN agrees
HEART disagrees

The scar made by both
Has made me who I am
The decision they agreed upon
Has led my actions to where I am

I want them to see
How my heart was wounded when it tries to disagree with my brain
I want them to know
How my brain protects me from my stubborn heart

Then they'll understand
How fresh wound turns into full scar
How a scar turns into a wound
How each scar is molded into my heart
They'll see, the proportion of each scar made by each person who comes in and left

The Recall

It's been a year, But I still remember
When I was badly broken
Where are you ?!
That's what I'm wonderin'
Do you remember this day too ?!
Or Am I alone in this recall journey...

I never regret to have known you
In the first place, I decided to choose you
I decided to let love run through me
But the inevitable incompatibilities were just too huge
We don't complement, so we ended :(
Now I am better, really better :)
I've found myself again
Doin' things I used to do
And so much more things after you

I admit there are times I still lose myself
But not exactly as you did...
Leaving me on a dark night during a heavy rain
Leaving me on a ship without any course of direction
Now, I can easily pick myself up from the last drop I've fallen

Whereever you are, Thank you!
And if I see you...
I exactly know what to do...