East

Travelling East , was such a delight
May it be daytime or Absence of Light
Can't explain the feeling
That was running through my veins

Bliss?!, perhaps that was it!
Walking a distance, with my office shoes
Though it hurts from ankle to toes
For that one kiss, I don't wanna miss...

I ended my day, with a thought of you
I greet my day, with "I love you!"
Time is so fast, when I'm with you...
 I take it so slow, just to be with you...

Lately, I checked my directions, I lost the East :(
What's left are North, South and West.
I was badly hurt, when I can't find the East
But if I close my eyes, I can feel the East

Today, I decided not to travel East
Just let this sensation come to rest
The phenomenon of seeing sole direction
Has happened to me, because of the law of attraction

I keep to myself, not to travel that way
Until I put myself back to the tray
I hope one day, I'll find my East
And give me a different Bliss!

Rainshowers

That was  in November when I had my first rainshower
Over my grandfather's demise,
That was for me a slap surprise
I won't see his face and hear his voice again ever :(

Nothing compares to the feeling of losing a loved one
Though I know, everyone has its own Finish Line
But still it's hard to accept when your face at it!

Others say, "Do life really have to end this way?!"
I say, "This is life! Make the best out of it."
That wasn't so long when I realize how short life is
From that moment on,  Family has become top of my priorities

I Thank God, for the chance He gave me
To make my Family feel, how Dear they are to me
But God laid his plans in front of me
In foreign land, He never failed to guide me

Now I'm living the Dreams of Yesterday
Never thought, it would come this soon
Of course, I am not complaining with these Gifts
But some unwrapped "Gifts" left me too soon
And never come back,  and left me some lessons

Back to my reality, everyone says it's a sunny day
But why, it appears so gloomy to me ?!
Maybe because I had clouds in my eyes
That hasn't let go since I fall apart...

There was no forecast that it's gonna be a rainy day
I had rainshowers almost everyday
It ceases every morning and resumes every night
In the darkness of room, I hold on to my pillow tight...

As I see it now,  rainshowers has no plan to stop
Yes, I just have to keep it falling but not to point of drowning
It alleviates a bit,  everytime it comes to a temporary stop
It lessens the clouds that was blocking my sight.
But still not enough to make a another step onward and see the sun's light.

The Fall

At first, I thought I just stumbled on a wall
Never thought, into a crevice that I'd fall
There's no rope to hold-on
Nor traces, to follow-on

I've been here for quite long
Wanted someone to rescue me
But my voice, isn't that Strong
To reach the opening, for someone to hear me

I almost gave-up
When hope was no where to be found
But i hold on to my core
To my faith, I endure

I was bleeding day by day
But there's no blood you can see
Till now, I'm waiting for these droppings to cease
And wake-up everyday with ease

Just like any fall, you'll get hurt at first
Just like any wound will heal in time
Just like any scar will fade, won't last
Just like me, will find a home soon

Hot Seat on a CNY (2012-01-23)

Oh yeah! Today is Chinese New Year.
That's how I greeted the day when I wake-up this morning.
For real Chinese, it is such a meaningful day.
But for me, it is just an ordinary day.

Just like January 1, for them it is an ordinary day.
But for me it is such a meaningful day.
And I think that's just fair.

Anyway, that's not the meat of this post.
That is just the the soup. ;)

I visited a friend's condo for another swimming event.
I really love swimming recently, I don't know why... :D
Or maybe because I am on my weight-loss journey
So anything that could burn calories
I would like to try

At friend's condo, swimming event suddenly turns into a life-sharing event
And I have to admit, I wasn't prepared for it.
Questions were thrown at me.
I tried to evade, but there is no way to hide.

And so my friends got the info
Straight from me
On a white chair, solo

It was double jeopardy
I can't express it well because  I'm not a Tagalog nerdy
But still I made it fair to share a bit of myself
Than going home and keep the pain on a shelf

And so the event ended, I felt a bit of relief
And I'm thankful to have created a new outlet.
Oh now, I know the feeling of being on a HOT SEAT!

Lone Sailing

Who can resist a lady with a charming visage.
A smile that melts you to death.
And a stare that peeks into your soul.

Any ordinary guy will surely be running after her.
And...
I just did.

I consider myself as a faithful being.
Make myself available for her 24/7.
I don't know if she does the same.

It is true that TIME reveals the subtleness of every creature.
I got the chance to know her BETTER and BITTER sides.
From this moment, I already know how compatible n incompatible we are.
Since I choose this and wanted this...
I was blinded by the truth.
I ignored the BITTER sides and only see the BETTER sides.

I live everyday, only seeing her BETTER sides.
I never knew, it tantamounts to a decaying relationship-to-be.
Minute misunderstandings were born like virus.
Never got the chance to sit down and talk about them.

I tried to fight...
But it's hard to keep the boat floating and the sail going
When the lady-crew has gave-in.
We left the shore together, but now I am heading back to the shore alone.
Getting back to the shore alone ain't easy. Never easy!
The waves are stronger, and can feel its wrath.

Right now, I'm still in the middle of the ocean,
don't know which way to go.
I lost the compass while sailing.
I guess you took it with you.

Poor boy, when will I land and feel the shore again ?
And tell the story how I made it through the lone sailing.