Still

I got no choice but to embrace the blanket
That is now colder than it did before you came
Drinking whiskey to feel the warmth
But just cant feel its warmth
Travelled to peculiar places
But only to find familiar memories at every corner of the road
Like we used to kill time and never care what tomorrow will be
Like I used to feel you in my arms

Now I am sick of being stuck in this crossroad
The arrow sign has been dilapidated
I have forgotten where I am heading to
Only left is me with extra load of pain

I follow where wind blows
Hoping to find relief at its tail
As i follow its track
It drags me to bushes and can't hardly bounce back
The pace of time is slow
The sun sets on a mourning hue
Where are you
My still you

Mistake

You were a mistake
A painful mistake
Which started as a pixel of undetermined feeling
Turned into a definite mistake

I have used all my energy
Trying to make this right
But just cant
Really cant

In the beginning, You were a sweet mistake
I embrace everything that came with it
Flaws and obvious impecfections
Everything about you were just a turn on

There were days we talk
There were days of silence
A Day of silence
Felt like a decade of absence

I tried not to to care
But it just made me care more
I tried to forget
But it just made me remember more

Now I hate every inch of you
You made me forget who I was before you
Now I hate every memory of you
It just pops everywhere I go

Dont know when this hating and remembering will come to an end
This heartbreak and achy feeling
Now beats with the melody of a melancholic song
Which we used to sing as a happy song

Restore and Revert

This is me
Same heart
But without you in it

This is me
Same mind
But Without you in it

This is me
At Same place
But without you by my side

This is me
Finally letting you go
And embracing life without you

Unfinished Business

When you are near
Something inside me recognizes you
I tried to hide it
But It was totally difficult to imprison
Something inside that wanted to take a peek of you

I get more nervous as you draw closer
I can't seem to breathe
I feel the air passing thru every of part of my lungs
I am sweating of cold type
The fight of wanting to go or wanting to stay is at play

I like the view that I am seeing
But it also brings me back to the time of darkness
The time when I hated myself that I can't get to make myself hate you
The time when I give up the fight not to like you
The time when I fall for you and felt like a one way ticket to Mars

I've waited for this moment
But I was suprised that I am still disturbed by the feeling of yesterday
The joy and pains
Awakened and still remains
So I sigh, I underestimated the force that you were giving
Now it's driving me to sleep thinking