Oblivion

That was only yesterday
When I lose my ability to walk
I lost my strength to stand
When dreams get blurry
And Live a life of uncertainty

I locked carefully the doors of the past
As I travel through time tunnel
I did not bring the key with me
I want to keep locked doors die in oblivion
To make old scars untouchable
Old feelings unimaginable

My now is certain without You
I returned to be the man before You came
Hope you'll remain in the oblivion
Never come back and disturb my heart again

Sorries were not enough to fully heal
The wounds that were made by love so real
The bleeding before, I thought was unstoppable
But I was wrong, when I finally get out of the trap I thought was unbreakable
So here I am now and leaving you in the Oblivion

Cactus Life

Where were you?!
When I need you the most
I drown little by little
Into the eternal madness

I tried to breathe easy
But the sadness blocks my chest
It felt so heavy
And now I can barely breathe

I am now like a cactus on the desert
Wanting, needing something to hydrate
That will keep me alive
In the world of dry hearts

I learn to live and exist
Under the direct heat
It made me stronger
Now I have my way on how to ease

The spines on my surface
Are developed through time
Developed by each hard time
That enter, stay, and left my life line

This is my way of adapting to the environment
Full of difficult people
Intelligent yet narrow-minded
Truthful but actually pretentious

I've seen all these sorts
I know the world better
I see it better
Because I've been there!

Surrender Not!

Countless times I tried my luck
On love, career or anything that requires a path
I failed a number of times
But it never stopped me to chase and risk
My mind says "Give up!"
My heart whispers "Surrender not!"

I follow my heart and I was mesmerized
That the way I'm heading to
Is the way to the Cloud 9

I want to keep the position I am right now
Because the view is great
The feeling is perfect
I have reasons of everyday to celebrate
The collaboration of unique beings
Who sustains Life with Love
And Love with Life

"Surrender not!" has defined a new meaning in me
To persist no matter how clueless
To persist no matter how hopeless
As long as my heart whispers "Surrender not!"

Walk With Me

Two hearts met at a timeline
I met you, You met me in our life lines
If you take my heart with you
I will surrender it without a second thought
Because you own my heart now
You are my now!

Down the memory lane
I reserve a special container for you
That no one else can unlock
No one else but you

My heart have so much love
I can't contain it all in
I want to share it
With someone who can bare it

My dreams these days are now in a combo
I don't think nor plan in solo
I draw out my plans with you
It is now me and you

I want to realize these dreams
I need someone to walk with me
Through the smooth and rocky roads
Till I found the end of this road

Margin

I reach this moment
All around me seems fake
I can't figure out what's real from not
Once again, my mind play tricks on me

I felt angry
I felt sad
I felt helpless
My mind and my heart are restless

I wanted attention
Not from my friends
Not from my family
But from someone greater than me

I wanted someone to break my walls
Will you be ?!
You might not like what you see
And change your mind suddenly

Right now I am carrying an invisible weight on my shoulders
Damn! It's so heavy
If only I can lift it up easily
And walk through life freely

The figment of my imagination
Is taking me somewhere I can't fathom
It lifts me too high
It pulls me too low

I lost the ability
Of drawing a margin
Between sadness and happiness
Between illusion from reality
When will I win it again?!
To be the master of my own Margin

Beyond Boiling Point

By the time the sun kiss the morning
Then our night ends
But it is never too late
For us to try and make this right

The dew is still fresh
Let's not wait for it to dry-up
Then vanish into the atmosphere
Before it reaches the sky, it is eaten by thin air

I see nothing but haze
That covers my way as I solve this maze
I need somebody to take me high
Higher than high

It is the only way
For me to see beyond these skies of grey
I am your prey
I submit my soul to you without dismay

Let's sail again, beyond the horizon can fill
I promise, I will be still
If you guide me through it
We will surely get through it

The volcanoes underneath, are about to erupt
No specific time of explosion
The magma are now on its perfect texture
Melting rock, blazing hot, ready to exit at volcano's aperture

Miss You Everytime

I Miss You when I wake up
I Miss You when I'm off to work
I Miss You when I'm on a train
I Miss You when I alight from a train
I Miss You Everytime

I Miss You when I'm at work
I Miss You when I take a break
I Miss You when I'm having my lunch
I Miss You when I'm bound for home
I Miss You Everytime

I Miss You when I reach home
I Miss You when I jog
I Miss You when I go to the gym
I Miss You when I go for a swim
I Miss You Everytime

I Miss You when I eat my dinner
I Miss You when I face the computer
I Miss You when I'm off to bed
I Miss You when I think of you
I Miss You Everytime

Concentrated-type Venom

I was poisoned by venom
A concentrated type
That's overflowing within me
That I chose not to be cured
Because it is addictive

I prayed that antidote won't be discovered
I hoped for this intensity to stay at its peak
The options at hand
Are leading towards the hook of love

I will never ever trade this reality
This time it is not a fantasy
I pinched myself quite a number of times
How amazing that I hear everywhere nothing but chimes
That are leading me to you
Greater than the speed of sound
I imagined you faster than the speed of light
I see your face so clear and bright

Your absence beside me
Though it is killing every bit of me
The covenant we have
Keep every piece of me alive

In time, yes in time
We will surely level-up, that not a single dime can surpass
Not even a thing can be at par
What we have is precious
Though at times it's dangerous
But I love how it stings my heart and turn-out to be addictively venomous!

The Safe House

Today I woke-up with a stress
A non-work related type
But a real-life-phased type
Countless times, I caught myself
Staring at the monitor like a lifeless creature

I had an attempt of filing a sick leave
I analyzed it, it would not be of help
So I keep myself busy
All throughout the day I had this fight
Not to think of problems I kept inside

In my mind, the sound of Tick! Tock! is playing
I can't wait for this workday to end
In months, this has been the most difficult day
That I need to visit a safe house to stay

Sadness devours my being
As I do every step to the safe house
The clouds in my eyes turns from cirrus to nimbo-cumulus
But still I managed to cease the rain from dropping

Finally I reached the safe house
I had a talk with HIM
HE is the only omnipotent being
WHO knows everything
Even the exact coordinates of the dirt in my uncut fingernails
HE who knows even my untold pain

The safe house is open 24/7
You, me, we are welcome 24/7
I'm never been this safe
Since the time I am faced with dread

I listened to HIS words very eagerly
I wanted to touch HIS cloak just like a leper did
I want to be healed instantly
But in the end, I just asked for the strength
To help me carry this burden
I have right now with my family

Buttless Barrel

Few days ago, I received sad news
From the people dearest to me
My family is put to a test
I am so sad that I can't be with them to face the test

I don't know what it is
But it weakened me to the bones
I felt paralyzed
A sudden grey sky covers my beautiful day!

From the moment I realized that human can cry
From the moment I realized that I am a type of guy
Who cannot open-up when it comes to my worriment
Even my closest friend would not know about my sentiment

Just like an ordinary being
I have my set of problems too
But there are just those
That's too heavy to carry
And it aches from head to toes

Long time ago, I installed buttless barrel within me
For me to keep the unshed tears
That no matter how hard I cry
It would be impossible to fill

Eversince, that's my way of easing the pain
Hitherto, I still do the same
Thanks for the buttless barrel
For tirelessly accepting the saline
That dropped from my eyes
Without following a law or any type of scheduling

The Lullaby

She is rare
She is a special kind
And so I dare
To stay on her side

That one night we intertwined
Leaving all doubtful thoughts behind
Sharing the night through cyber talks
Letting our music talks

Never noticed the night is getting inversely young
It was just like a moment ago, when the phone rang
We shared almost everything for night to kill
Even the funny and serious thoughts about RH Bill

I ended the night with goodbye
She ended it with a lullaby
I see through her and feel her
I wanted to jump-off my bed and hug her

As I quote from her Lullaby
"It is never impossible for a Lion to fall for a Lamb"
I will remember this as time goes by
For once in my life, it's ok to be stupid and dumb!

Pangako

Sana'y ako'y maging sapat sa'yo
Wala mang yaman na mai-alay
Kundi ang pagmamahal na banayad at tunay
Pag-ibig na puro at walang halong biro

Kung ika'y lilisan man
Sa ikabuturan ng puso ika'y mananatili
Nag-iisang mahal sa hilirang lipi
Panahon ma'y lumipas
Ala-ala mo sa puso't isipa'y di kukupas

Pangako mo rin sa akin
Na kung ako'y lilipas din
Sa puso mo'y huwag sana akong kumupas
Na waring nawalan ng init na sopas

Sa kasalukuyan puso nati'y nag-aalab
Sana'y di magwakas sa mga darating na bukas
Pagkat lungkot ko'y abot langit
Kung magwakas itong pag-ibig na kay higpit

Pangako ko'y di ako susuko
Sa ano mang hamon na kapalaran
Hanggat kasama kita sa tuwina
Malalampasan kahit anong unos at bagyo man

Stolen

Today I have the luxury of time
To think of things that on my mind been running
Though I'm facing the computer monitor
Yet my mind is on tour

In the external, I may seem fine
But internally, I am shaking
Been almost drowning of aggrevated things
I need to say, but just can't find the right timing

I've been through the worst pain
I've been in the best bliss
Nothing beats that feeling
When someone teaches you life's new meaning

It's 2PM, I'm wondering what you are doing
I'm wondering who are you thinking
You crossed on my mind in a great spectrum
Like a great weight reciprocal of tantrum

I blink my eyes twice, hoping to end this wondering
Sleepiness has lost its appetite to attack me
In a way, you ruled my day
My time, my mind, my heart were stolen for a day!

How To Let Go?!

How to let go?
If you have enormous questions, you wish you have asked her
How to let go?
When it still hurts inside, no matter what you do
How to let go?
When your mind does not hold on but your heart does
Now tell me, how to let go?!

How to let go?
When your morning ignites with longing
How to let go?
When you see lovers holding hands and wishing it was you and I
How to let go?
When you try to forget her, You never forget just every moment you're with her
How to let go?, Please tell me How to let go?

How to let go?
When you're surrounded by things that reminds you of her
How to let go?
When you still see her face, hear her voice and feel her touch
How to let go?
When you don't know just what to say or do
How to let go?
When you realized, You just can't let her go?! :(

Tanging Yaman

Walang ibang nakikita
Walang ibang inaabangan
Kundi ang bawat saglit na ika'y matanaw
Nitong matang naghahangad
Ng kagandahang masilayan
Na kukumpleto ng araw kong mapanglaw

Sa tuwing sasapit ang dapit hapon
Anong saya ang nararamdaman
Sabik sa usapang magdamagan
Parang walang bukas na pinangangambahan

Ikaw ang aking Ngayon at Bukas
Sana'y magpantay itong damdamin natin
Na kahit sa buhay ng dilim
Sama-sama nating haharapin

Ako'y maaasahan mong naka-alalay
At di magsasawang ika'y mahalin
Ikaw ang nag-iisang tama
Na nangyari sa buhay ko, buhat noong siya'y nawala
Iiwan man ako ng lahat
Sinta ko, mananatili ka sanang tapat
Pagkat ang buhay ng wala ka ay di sapat

Gigising ako araw-araw na mayaman
Hanggat nandito ka sa tabi ko Aking Tanging Yaman
Sana'y di magbabago
Tayong dalawa hanggang sa dulo

Prinsesa

Bawat patak ng oras
Sa isipan ko'y ika'y naglalaro
Na parang trumpo na walang katapusang umiikot
Minsan tahimik pero kadalasa'y malikot
Nagbibigay ngiti sa mukha
Binubusog ang puso
Ng masasayang ala-ala
Kaya antok ko ngayo'y di nakagala

Gusto kong iguhit ang bukas
Na kasama ka
Tatahakin natin ang landas
Patungong kawalan na tawong dalawa
Doon ika'y pagsilbihan
Ng walang pag-iimbot
Aking Prinsesa, "Karangalan kong pagsilbihan ka!"

Noon pangarap ko'y payak
Ngayong nandito ka,
Kahit suntok sa buwan
Di magdadalawang-isip ako'y tatahak

Kung panaginip man ito
Sana'y wag na akong magising
Langit ang nararamdaman ko
Simula't sapul tayo'y nagtagpo

I Found Her

I finally found her
Her name is first in the alphabet
I love what I'm feelin'
It brings me near her through my heart's beatin'

Her face appears on the wall
Her voice drives me like a fool
Her smile erases my stress
Just watching her, Oh! what a bliss!

It's been a while since the last time I had this feeling
Where I greet "I Love You" for my morning
I learned to look-up the sky again
And Thank God For the day and the moment I found you

I want to hold you in my arms
And never let you go
I want to hug you tight
With all my might

Whenever I'm with you
Just give me that notion
And I'll play life's controller in slow motion
I'll surely guide you to my direction

I want to keep, cherish and flourish what we have
I want to keep you by my side
This is all because I Need You!
This is all because I Love You!

Spring Clean

Before I enter another chapter of my life
I see to it, I am ready
I know it is a bit tough
To leave some things to memory

When I say to myself "To Clean"
What I meant is Spring Clean
May it be emotional, psychological or spiritual
I don't care if it sounds to you traditional

I want to prepare myself for the person that will matter
From this moment and Then on
When I get into that Lovin' Feelin'
No lies get in the way but love ruling

Right now I have equipped myself with the necessities
Inorder for me to catch her when she fall
I installed a parachute within me
To land us safely when we both fall

Trial and Error has no place in my system
I only think of the fruit, that will yield out from this Love System
This is what I do
Just for Me and You

Who is Difficult?!

Is it you?!
Or is it just me ?!
The situation we are in
Seems so messy

I want to be out of these
I just don't need you
I tried to keep you in my circle
But your actions pushed me to the hurdle

I learned to wear a mask
Thanks for coercing me to do it
It is such an arduous task
For I know in the end it isn't worth it

So I decided to have a mask take-off
I wanted to have a face-off
But the lies in your eyes
Are just too conspicuous
And then I realized
I was not the only one wearing the mask
And so are you!

I just can't wait for that day
You'll have your mask take-off
And do with me a face-off
I'll assure you, I won't back-off

If this is what you wanted
I'll give it to you
I am not born to surrender
To a person with less of a character!

In the first place, why these things matter ?
Because I'm certain, you've stepped into me
Because I'm certain, you're not being genuine
So, I'll shave you off my everyday living!

Eyes Open

Just heard a couple of songs on Radio about Eyes Open
So I decided to write something about Eyes Open
The wider it opens the greater the sight & alert we become
Able to grasp the changing patterns unfolding right before our very eyes
This is the significance of making our eyes open
Albeit at times, we prefer to keep it close for solemnity

The lesson here is whether eyes are closed or open
Is to keep vigilant at all times
Because burglars does not always come at night
When all eyes are closed and pass through the back door
Sometimes thieves steal through the front door
At daytime when all of us are wide awake and Eyes Open

Always have a close look at precious entities in life
And a close guide at precious people in life
But don't hold them too tight for they slip like a soap
Rather give them freedom like a dove
That every dusk it finds its way Home

Soundtrack

The soundtrack that governs my summer
Is the song that you provide me when I was sober

I listen to it all over again
Until I am addicted to the song
Until I am addicted to you
Now my reason of every day and night is you

Sometimes I am perplexed
By the thought of how two parallel roads
Met somewhere at crossroads
And there I found you at my crossroads

It was not intentional
But love gravitational
Yes the pull was just right
Because it led me to you and felt so right

Everytime I think of you, I am about to erupt
With joy in my heart
That is beating in the tune of the soundtrack!

Play

When I decide to play with Love
Never thought I would be trapped
With my own foolishness
Here I am dwelling in deep sadness

It was hard at times to think about it
On how I fell into my own pit
Never had clues that I am heading on something
Something that is unfathomable by words of the alphabet
But only fathomable by heart felt

Crazy as they say
But I admit I'm into this craziness
But how long will this infect me
Perhaps till then when I wake-up from this dream
But what if I won't be able to realize
That all I am into is nothing but just a Game!

Calvary 101

Before my SG Life turns to a Year
A challenge knocked my door on the 5th of June
I got sick, Chickenpox was its name
But I am determined to win over it!

My OFW Year is culminated with a disease
As the lesions spring into my skin
I can feel its wrath like a summer sun
It felt so hot and I wanted an instant summer breeze

As day progresses, the lesions mature
Waiting to crust and dry-up
Little by little relief is achieved
Immune system restoring and building-up

Twist and Turns literally coined my bed
Alarm clock has become my bestfriend
She wakes me-up, for my anti-viral med
She's with me in this fight until the end

Finally the ill has gone out of me
Spots and marks are awfully conspicuous
Chickenpox is not Chicken after all
Perhaps, I just experienced one of OFW's Calvary!

Prophecy 2020

July 23, 2020 is the day of knot-tieing!
Collision of Venus and Mars on Earth!
The day will be longer than any day...
The night won't seem to end
Because it's the moment we will say "I do"

I know, it isn't yet written in the horizon
But I will write it for You!
Because by that time, I have decided on You.
To be in real journey to the milky way...

You will be my life's Steering Wheel
Building a full-circle I dreamed of.
My reason of yesterday, my ultimate reason of tomorrow!
Together, we'll grow

You will be my Home, when I can't find one.
You will be my Sun, when mine refuse to shine.
You will be my Anchor, when the waves are too strong to handle.
You will be my reason, for every reason I can think of.

I am yours and You are Mine.
All these are possible, when we are Blessed Divine!

Rekindle

I believe in rekindling!
But it is a 50-50 decision to cling.
Don't want to fall into a crevice again
I might be trapped forever in pain

Let's just keep it unofficial!
No demands, No promises
I find it better this way
Safe from wounding scars that once healed
Still I'll play the game fair and square...

Away from the traditional communication.
If I catch you OL, or catch me OL
That's the only time, chat time, meeting time
The rendezvous has not changed, since I left
I'll catch you awake or asleep

Don't be bothered with my presence
You knew, you come to me too strong!
But now, I handle you better-off I did before
Never noticed, the tea has lost its heat
We were overwhelmed by our heart's beat!

Nightmare on a V-Day!

I put myself to sleep early
For the trip to JB
But what the heck has happened
Nightmare woke me up on a V-day!

She was with her new
While I was at a far view
Yet it seemed too clear
And I want to disappear

Yes, I've reached the desert
But still I experienced slight sand storm
I admit I still get hurt
But I know it is just the norm

Is this still part of the process ?
To dream of the girl who gave me love stress.
I don't know how to put in words
One thing is certain...
It feels like a cut from a sword!

I still decided to continue my sleep
To have a good rest
I know I can't stop tomorrow
Even I still feel pain and sorrow
This time I preceded with a prayer
Hoping for nightmare to disappear!

Scratch

Last night, I closed a chapter of my book.
I draw-out a blank piece of paper
Ready to scribe LIFE's mysterious ways
And hopeful not to be caught-up again in a hook!

If I got poisoned by LOVE again.
I'll make sure, I have an ANTIDOTE.
An antidote, that's created while on the process of being poisoned.
Because I don't want to make SUN as ALPHA and BLACKHOLE as OMEGA!

They say there is no FORMULA in LOVE.
But don't they know, there is a ANTIDOTE FORMULA?
We'll it's for us to find out ;)
I know the FIRE EXIT is sometimes hard to find!

The next chapter of my book.
I won't be using ink
I will be using blood
Because it stays longer for a future look!

In life, it is easier to start from scratch
Rather than dwelling on a devastated present
But of course, I need to close it carefully
Because I don't want my future to have a spot of devastated past.
To wrap it up, I am ready to start from SCRATCH!

Desert

At last! I stepped on the desert.
My eyes had gone out of water.
My heart is at season of drought.
Rainshower has come to a full-stop.

I woke up late, and felt a different bliss.
Bliss of longing-free.
I put myself back into the game.
The game they call LIFE!

She is not the first mammal that boots into my mind today.
Instead it is HE. GOD is.
On the 23 of February 2012, I will be back to the place where I belong.
So grateful, to be back soon at ABSOLUTE state.

The scars are still in.
But I know they are fading.
I don't need a band aid to cover them.
All I need is TIME to fade them.

I know the TIME is near...
Now, I see LIFE better
I will go at full-speed soon
Speed that no one has ever did

I will break records in life
And one day, I can say...
"I've been through the OCEAN and gracefully shifts into the DESERT!"

The Story of: "She, The Sun, And Me"

She came into my life at daybreak!
She explored my world.
And deposit a pot of gold.
I bombed the bank for the dime to leak.

At our healthy times, we played just and fair.
We exchanged sun.
Along the way, while I was enjoying her sun,
And she was enjoying mine.
She played a sun trick and taught me the secret.

Poor me, just believed in one secret to learn the trick.
But she had zillion ways to play the trick.
I never explored much because just having her was fair enough.
But she did the contrast, and get her sun back without my knowledge.

Along with her sun, she took mine too.
She didn't play fair! :(
Then I was striving to get my sun back.

Tonight February 1, 2012, I revived my sun.
Ironically, it didn't come at daybreak...
Instead I got it at night while having a jog break!
I'm excited for tomorrow on how it will run!
But right now, I decided to run tomorrow with my sun! ;)

East

Travelling East , was such a delight
May it be daytime or Absence of Light
Can't explain the feeling
That was running through my veins

Bliss?!, perhaps that was it!
Walking a distance, with my office shoes
Though it hurts from ankle to toes
For that one kiss, I don't wanna miss...

I ended my day, with a thought of you
I greet my day, with "I love you!"
Time is so fast, when I'm with you...
 I take it so slow, just to be with you...

Lately, I checked my directions, I lost the East :(
What's left are North, South and West.
I was badly hurt, when I can't find the East
But if I close my eyes, I can feel the East

Today, I decided not to travel East
Just let this sensation come to rest
The phenomenon of seeing sole direction
Has happened to me, because of the law of attraction

I keep to myself, not to travel that way
Until I put myself back to the tray
I hope one day, I'll find my East
And give me a different Bliss!

Rainshowers

That was  in November when I had my first rainshower
Over my grandfather's demise,
That was for me a slap surprise
I won't see his face and hear his voice again ever :(

Nothing compares to the feeling of losing a loved one
Though I know, everyone has its own Finish Line
But still it's hard to accept when your face at it!

Others say, "Do life really have to end this way?!"
I say, "This is life! Make the best out of it."
That wasn't so long when I realize how short life is
From that moment on,  Family has become top of my priorities

I Thank God, for the chance He gave me
To make my Family feel, how Dear they are to me
But God laid his plans in front of me
In foreign land, He never failed to guide me

Now I'm living the Dreams of Yesterday
Never thought, it would come this soon
Of course, I am not complaining with these Gifts
But some unwrapped "Gifts" left me too soon
And never come back,  and left me some lessons

Back to my reality, everyone says it's a sunny day
But why, it appears so gloomy to me ?!
Maybe because I had clouds in my eyes
That hasn't let go since I fall apart...

There was no forecast that it's gonna be a rainy day
I had rainshowers almost everyday
It ceases every morning and resumes every night
In the darkness of room, I hold on to my pillow tight...

As I see it now,  rainshowers has no plan to stop
Yes, I just have to keep it falling but not to point of drowning
It alleviates a bit,  everytime it comes to a temporary stop
It lessens the clouds that was blocking my sight.
But still not enough to make a another step onward and see the sun's light.

The Fall

At first, I thought I just stumbled on a wall
Never thought, into a crevice that I'd fall
There's no rope to hold-on
Nor traces, to follow-on

I've been here for quite long
Wanted someone to rescue me
But my voice, isn't that Strong
To reach the opening, for someone to hear me

I almost gave-up
When hope was no where to be found
But i hold on to my core
To my faith, I endure

I was bleeding day by day
But there's no blood you can see
Till now, I'm waiting for these droppings to cease
And wake-up everyday with ease

Just like any fall, you'll get hurt at first
Just like any wound will heal in time
Just like any scar will fade, won't last
Just like me, will find a home soon

Hot Seat on a CNY (2012-01-23)

Oh yeah! Today is Chinese New Year.
That's how I greeted the day when I wake-up this morning.
For real Chinese, it is such a meaningful day.
But for me, it is just an ordinary day.

Just like January 1, for them it is an ordinary day.
But for me it is such a meaningful day.
And I think that's just fair.

Anyway, that's not the meat of this post.
That is just the the soup. ;)

I visited a friend's condo for another swimming event.
I really love swimming recently, I don't know why... :D
Or maybe because I am on my weight-loss journey
So anything that could burn calories
I would like to try

At friend's condo, swimming event suddenly turns into a life-sharing event
And I have to admit, I wasn't prepared for it.
Questions were thrown at me.
I tried to evade, but there is no way to hide.

And so my friends got the info
Straight from me
On a white chair, solo

It was double jeopardy
I can't express it well because  I'm not a Tagalog nerdy
But still I made it fair to share a bit of myself
Than going home and keep the pain on a shelf

And so the event ended, I felt a bit of relief
And I'm thankful to have created a new outlet.
Oh now, I know the feeling of being on a HOT SEAT!

Lone Sailing

Who can resist a lady with a charming visage.
A smile that melts you to death.
And a stare that peeks into your soul.

Any ordinary guy will surely be running after her.
And...
I just did.

I consider myself as a faithful being.
Make myself available for her 24/7.
I don't know if she does the same.

It is true that TIME reveals the subtleness of every creature.
I got the chance to know her BETTER and BITTER sides.
From this moment, I already know how compatible n incompatible we are.
Since I choose this and wanted this...
I was blinded by the truth.
I ignored the BITTER sides and only see the BETTER sides.

I live everyday, only seeing her BETTER sides.
I never knew, it tantamounts to a decaying relationship-to-be.
Minute misunderstandings were born like virus.
Never got the chance to sit down and talk about them.

I tried to fight...
But it's hard to keep the boat floating and the sail going
When the lady-crew has gave-in.
We left the shore together, but now I am heading back to the shore alone.
Getting back to the shore alone ain't easy. Never easy!
The waves are stronger, and can feel its wrath.

Right now, I'm still in the middle of the ocean,
don't know which way to go.
I lost the compass while sailing.
I guess you took it with you.

Poor boy, when will I land and feel the shore again ?
And tell the story how I made it through the lone sailing.